never let this go
2010-01-18 @ 20:45:34
Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong
Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight
Please don't get me wrong
Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
ambs
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knock you down
2010-01-11 @ 19:18:38
I never thought I'd be in love like this,
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip.
I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did,
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids.
Every mornin' I look at you and smile,
'Cause girl you came around and you knocked me down.
Now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened.
But I know it feels so damn good.
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster.
Don't you know I would baby if I could?
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the used - the taste of ink
2010-01-06 @ 09:15:38
Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
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new year
2010-01-02 @ 03:13:48
You came into my room,
With poison on your lips, didn't you?
It seems as though my mind and body,
Both dissolve with your kiss.
I hate myself at 15 years old
I hate myself at 15 years old
I feel like I'm going to be sick,
Even though your heart is so beautiful.
Why do you kiss me,
Who can't even do a single thing at all?
I hate these days of being 15 years old
I hate my face at 15 years old
I want to fly with my magnificient wings,
Like a black swallowtail butterfly.
Don't say that it's stupid,
That kind of a life is just fine.
Just fine.
If getting rid of a filthy soul,
Is an impossible thing.
No matter where you walk,
Can that be called the future?
I'm indecisive with my dreams at 15 years old
I'm indecisive with my lies at 15 years old
I want to turn into a black swallowtail butterfly,
And be loved by someone.
Even if it does happen 9 times out of 10,
Just for one moment would be just fine.
Just fine.
I hate myself at 15 years old
I hate myself at 15 years old
I want to fly with my magnificient wings,
Like a black swallowtail butterfly.
Don't say that it's stupid,
That kind of a life is just fine.
I want to turn into a black swallowtail butterfly,
And be loved by someone.
Even if it does happen 9 times out of 10,
Just for one moment would be just fine.
Just fine.
livet har massa år kvar,
vad kan dessa år ge?
ännu ett nytt år.
blir livet bättre efteråt, eller är det bara en illusion.
nostalgi, nostalgi, nostalgi.
jag hoppas livet efter är vackrare.
jag famlar, jag springer, jag dansar, jag vacklar.
men mina drömmar slutar aldrig där.
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wilco - I'm the man who loves you
2009-12-22 @ 21:50:05
All I can see is black and white
and white and pink with blades of blue
that lay between the words I think
on a page I was meaning to send her
You I couldn't tell if it bring my heart
the way I wanted when I started
writing this letter to you
If I could you know I would
just hold your hand and you'd understand
I'm the girl who loves you
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the silver mt. zion memorial orchestra & tra-la-la band - horses in the sky
2009-12-18 @ 17:57:15
nostalgi
oftast är snön vacker, ren och mjuk.
men med snö kommer kyla.
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the red jumpsuit apparatus - face down
2009-11-22 @ 22:46:20
Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough?
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siouxsie and the banshees - oh baby
2009-11-22 @ 22:38:37
I'm the lost and found
Look at the stars they're raining down
Even these jewels want to kiss your crown
Don't be afraid it's just your face
Has that effect on heavens' treasure case
Oh Baby, Oh maybe
You're a paragon
I haven't felt this way before
Impossible to ask for more
Unanswered prayers that went before
Lie like leaves upon the floor
Hang all the world and universe
When I'm with you they always seem perverse
I'm in a state of weightlessness
When I inhale your angel breath
Oh Baby, Oh maybe
I'm the lost and found
ida, du är kärlek. <3~
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biosphere - phantasm
2009-11-18 @ 22:50:59
jag vill känna känslor igen.
jag vill veta att jag existerar, åtminstone lite.
men är det bra för mig igen?
att känna saker, jag vet inte längre.
jag kommer inte ens ihåg hur det är.
men det känns som att jag är stabilare utan känslor.
samtidigt vill jag ha dem tillbaks för att få någon typ av bekräftelse.
haha, har fått glasögon. är översynt.
det är som att jag varit sjuk, haft ont i huvudet och i ögonen.
och glasögonen var medicinen. hoho.
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry.
Call I'm desperate for your voice.
Listening to the song we used to sing.
In the car, do you remember?
Butterfly, Early Summer.
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet.
Like when we would meet.
Cause I was born to tell you I love you.
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight.
I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have.
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gary jules - mad world
2009-11-17 @ 20:53:08
All around me are familiar faces.
Worn out places, worn out faces.
Bright and early for their daily races.
Going nowhere, going nowhere.
Their tears are filling up their glasses.
No expression, no expression.
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow.
No tomorrow, no tomorrow.
And I find it kinda funny,
I find it kinda sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying,
Are the best I've ever had.
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take.
When people run in circles.
It's a very, very mad world mad world.
Children waiting for the day they feel good,
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday.
And I feel the way that every child should.
Sit and listen, sit and listen.
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the used - I'm a fake
2009-11-16 @ 22:29:16
Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
Look at me, you can tell.
By the way I move and do my hair.
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care.
I'm alive.
I don't smell.
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
Satisfied, in your eyes.
My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace.
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face.
and this sicknes is me, I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling.
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secondhand serenade - fall for you
2009-11-10 @ 18:38:39
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
❤~
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thee silver mt. zion memorial orchestra & tra-la-la band - god bless our dead marines
2009-11-04 @ 16:52:13
KAAAAAAAAAAAAATRIN <333333333333333333333333333333333333~
WOULDN'T SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I LOVE.
JAG DÖR OM DU DÖR.
DU FÅR MIG ATT LE NÄR VARDAGEN ÄR GRÅ.
NÄR INGEN ANNAN NÅR MIG, KÄNNER JAG ATT DU BERÖR, MIG.
INGEN ANNAN FÖRSTÅR MIG SÅ BRA SOM DU.
JAG ÖNSKAR ATT DU ALDRIG LÄMNAR MIG OCH JAG SKA GÖRA ALLT JAG KAN FÖR ATT GÖRA DIG LYCKLIG.
KATRIN, SNÄLLA.
JAG GER DIG VAD DU VILL NÄR DU SÄGER MITT NAMN KOMMER JAG KOMMA SPRINGANDES.
KATRIN DU ÄR ALLT FÖR MIG.
DU GÖR MIG HEL.
CSM is responsible for everything
///FLUKEMAN-malin
haha.
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city and colour - the girl
2009-11-03 @ 00:42:03
JAG VILL KUNNA KÄNNA NÅGOT.
och jag vet inte hur jag mår för alla som undrar, är trött på frågor när jag inte har något svar.
jag är bara tom. kan inte ens beskriva känslan eftersom jag inte känner någonting alls.
jag har förlorat den människa som förstod mig, tog mig seriöst, fattade hur jag tänker, mår och känner.
så. meningslöst. just därför för er som tycker jag blivit konstig, nej. jag visar vem jag är annars.
CEEEPEE.
(värdelöst inlägg, jagvet.)
du håller mig vid liv. ~<3
(+++++++carolina)
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bob marley - is this love
2009-10-06 @ 16:46:55
hm, ja, jag blev ju tillsagd av min kära carolina att blogga lite mer?
men vad finns det att skriva egentligen? är väl bara hon som läser ändå, hehe.
står inom några svåra val antar jag, gymnasiet, vart jag ska bo, livet, vänner and so on.
det finns väl inga raka svar heller, får söka mig framåt, men jag har ett behov av att veta vart jag har allt och alla?
känns som att jag bara går tillbaks i livet när jag egentligen vill gå framåt.
är väldigt stressad och förvirrad vilket förmodligen lett till varför jag gjort som jag gjort och varför jag är så helvetes sjuk.
jag behöver pengar, jag behöver cigg, jag behöver närhet.
sen är jag väl bara helt enkelt less, på hur samhället fungerar, men framför allt på människors tänkande.
tur att jag har mina små stjärnor åtminstone.
just nu längtar jag bara tills marcus och katrin kommer hem från johan, finns mycket att berätta antar jag.
och jag hoppas dem har med sig gihblifilmerna så jag och carro kan ha våran jäkla dag någon gång!
och jag läre bara lägga till att jag har nog hittat världens mest fantastiska flicka
du gör en mörk dag ljus
♥ i d a
• ~my sensible heart.